A little background:
I got married in 2017 and since that day baby advices had been coming in out of my weight concerns. I have always been a little heavier and curvier. My weight causing a problem to grow a love seed in my belly I meant conceiving a baby always seemed silly to me. So, I always shooed those advices away. I am a sucker for going out and having fun, I am all about travelling and eating out. I was aware a baby could mean sacrificing a portion of my life and my husband and I wanted to halt it for another year.
When ‘Jotish Baa’ Happened 🤦♀️:
One random day one of my colleague mentioned about a ‘Jotish Guru’ who was very good at reading ‘Cheena’. So, I decided to give it a try, many things he said was very much true and satisfying. But then he got stuck to a point that we would have problem conceiving a baby because we both had some ‘Dosh’ in our ‘Cheena’. It was all for fun but soon it started haunting me with questions – What if it’s all-true and I never get to be a mother?? Also my mom and my sisters had always been warning of the same. Just for the ‘Cheena’s sake’, I told my husband I wanted to try for a baby. I had some convincing to do, but we were NOWHERE READY for a baby. We made LOVE and guess what I MISS my period for the first time in my LIFE and we cultivated a SEED in the very first try 😄. Yep, sharing the pregnancy news was nothing happy and merry like in movies. My husband and I both freaked out, yelled and blamed each other for not having the ‘Doshi Cheena’. I cursed that ‘Jotish baa’ so bad! 😡
But hey, with seeing baby’s heartbeat for the first time, we have been pumped about welcoming the baby in our lives.
Corona Happened:😟
I have worked almost everyday for the past 8 years of my life. I had planned to work at least till 36 weeks of the last trimester. Like I said before, I JUST CANT stay home, I am all about OUT and EAT. AND Suddenly the ‘Corona’ shutdown happened! NO WARNINGS NOTHING, HATE YOU CORONA!
I coped well for the first two weeks, I cooked whatever I wanted to cook and binged watched all the memes and videos. The hormonal changes got me into frequent mood swings, also thanks to my ever-growing bouncing ball lookalike belly; I can’t sleep well and move around for God’s sake. I missed eating out, missed my parents, siblings, cousins, friends, and work, missed the ‘NORMAL TIMES’. Everything and everyone around got me irritated and I struggled to keep myself normal. The stress got me to lose 2kgs of weight whereas I should have been gaining. Nothing to worry about since the baby’s weight gain was perfectly normal.
Corona=NO Dahi Cheura and Baby Shower
I have stepped in my 9thmonth of pregnancy. Like any other expecting mom’s, I always had big plans for my baby shower with friends and family. I have a big family, I was excited the last month would be the most thrilling with all my loved ones coming around and I would devour myself in all the delicacies.
Thanks to the rise in Corona cases, all my dahi cheura and baby shower dreams are ruined. This is my first baby and could be the ONLY baby I may end up having. It makes me sad to the core for not being able to cherish this precious time with my loved ones.
Havent got anything for the baby
I wanted to buy stuffs for the baby and myself to be handy when the baby arrives. Nothing went as planned, I am locked inside my home it’s been more than HOW MANY DAYS, I have lost the count arghhh!!
As my due date is approaching, I am growing concerned over baby’s health and mine. If the similar situation persists I am aware my parents and my siblings may not be able to come see us after the baby too. Having a baby should be exciting and feel good times but here I am NERVOUS AND SCARED, may be I am overthinking??
Pregnancy is an emotional roller coaster ride, but being pregnant and due to deliver any day during the heart of this is unlike anything you can prepare for. One of the most concerning issues a brand- new mom could face is the possibility that, if she is infected with Corona virus, baby may be separated from her kepy in isolation in the nursery’
I know there are many expecting mothers right now going through the same. All we can do is stay home, practice a healthy lifestyle and PRAY for the situation to improve and have a safe, healthy delivery.
P.S. Also, I may name my baby boy ‘Covid Thapa’ 😀
